I want to share a story because unfortunately I know many of you can relate. This is me being vulnerable and choosing to share some of the deepest darkest shadow work that has been continuous over the past few years. I want to share this for a few reasons: 1. I want you to know you’re not alone. 2. I want you to know that no matter where you are in your shadow work journey, you WILL feel better every step of the way. You don’t have to be at some elusive “end” point of your healing journey (that doesn’t exist). 3. I want you to understand that these big things will continue to come back around, no matter how good you are at shadow work, because everything is layered and takes time. 4. I don’t want you to be discouraged when these things do come back around. 5. I want to create an open forum for this topic that is way too common yet seems to be taboo. Okay here goes (and truly this does terrify me to share). I experienced sexual abuse by a family member as a child. I repressed 90% of the memories, and the remaining memories got changed by my child brain because the authority figure told me X didn’t happen, it was Y (without getting into the details). I could do an entire video or write a book on this but I want to keep this to the point. I have spent 25-30 years of my life with the classic symptoms of this, finally opened up my memories and awareness, subsequently spent years working with my inner child, clearing out the energy, and re-programming my brain. Things like sexual abuse are some of the most layered traumas and affect you in ways you can’t understand. This past weekend I experienced the most immediate energetic shift I ever have in my entire life in such a short period of time. And this is coming from someone who, not to toot my own horn, but I’m pretty good at moving energy and have done a LOT of healing. What I did was I finally told my parents. I had no idea the extent that this would shift. Imagine the healing for your throat chakra in sharing something you’ve never shared with your family and created programming around not speaking up your entire life. It not only tied up the loose ends related to the trauma, it gave me a new beginning to my relationship with my parents, which up until this point was very surface level, toxic, and something I distanced myself from even trying to fix. I feel lighter than I have ever felt. It was the final piece my inner child (actually children in this case, the trauma was so deep) needed. They can finally move past it and let it go. They feel heard, seen, and supported for the first time. I want to share this because speaking up and allowing ourselves to be seen and heard is MASSIVE when it comes to this type of trauma. Most traumas actually. But specifically with sexual trauma, we are told not to tell anyone and we hide it our entire lives. I want everyone to know my door is always open to share, to cry, or to talk about anything. Speaking is massive for your healing. I promise you I will see you, hear you, and hold space for you. 💙💙💙

Posted by Tricia Elizabeth at 2023-03-09 22:33:22 UTC